Sharing Who I Was Than and Who I Am Today

StrongandBlessed wrote:I am a 42 year old black business that experienced several forms of abuse at a early age. Physical, Mental, Emotional and Sexual abuse from the hands of my three parents (mother, father, step-father) and others. I became a woman before I could learn to be a child and it destroyed who I was at that time. I went from being my step-father pet to being his whore as he puts it, being sold to men for his pleasure and having a mother that left me with this monster knowing what he was doing to me. Being pregnant by him and shuffled off to have secret abortions. Being beat if I refused him or anyone else, constantly running away, but I was brought back to with people knowing what was going on. The only way I saw getting out of my abuse was to kill myself. I spent 8 years of my life not knowing whether I was going or coming and being afraid, because no one would help me. Finally someone heard me it was ex-boyfriend that threaten to kill my step-father if he ever touched me again and with that the courage to started to shine in me. I refused and fought him with all my might and he became afraid, because I started to win. Then it finally happened he gave me a STD that sent me to the hospital very sick and that when everything came out about what was happening to me. At one point I thought that wow I can finally heal and live my life, but it wasn't over like I thought. I had to deal with abuse from the courts and then my mother. I remember her saying to me that "If I wasn't trying to be her it wouldn't have happened", and all the hurt anger that I felt in my heart became pure rage toward everyone in my life. I fought my way back and now today I am a strong black, beautiful and blessed woman.